Robert Gonzales, a retired 62-year-old law enforcement officer with an irrepressible sense of humor, a love of karaoke and a habit of calling women "honey," is not a stereotypical macho man.

"I do shed tears when a loved one is lost. I have a tendency of asking for input. And the worst part is, I also grimace and let out cries of pain when I hurt myself," he said.

Gonzales is one of more than a dozen men —from age 19 to 80 — who will share the experience of being a man in The Testosterone Testimonials, a fundraiser for the Rape Crisis and Trauma Treatment Center.

The five-minute monologues will be presented by a varied group of men from the community including state Sen. John Grubesic, Rabbi Ben Morrow, the Rev. Richard Murphy of St. Bede's Episcopal Church, 3rd Congressional District candidate Benny Shendo Jr., The New Mexican's marketing manager Nik Cecere, gallery owner William Siegal, Deputy Police Chief Aric Wheeler, consultant and writer George Cappannelli, transsexual Cooper Lee Bombardier, legislative analyst Ray Lopez, Vietnam vet and musician Abdullah Muharram and 19-year-old Robert Valencia.

Director Richard Roberts is helping the men shape their monologues to ensure they convey a message and stay focused.

The goal is to dispel myths about males and to show that, "Men are far more than normally perceived. We have a full range of emotions. We are not all perpetrators of violence," said David Christel, who is helping to organize the event.

The concept is based on Eve Ensler's wildly popular Vagina Monologues, but with a twist. "Men are not going sit through a whole evening of just monologues," Christel said. "We wanted to bring more energy into it. "

As a result, The Testosterone Testimonials will include an African drumming group, Agalu, a Jicarilla Apache dance group and Jicarilla Apache singer Alan Tafoya, as well as a film montage featuring well-known and anonymous men in our society.

The men's movement has historically taken place in the woods, at isolated retreat centers, in small groups and behind closed doors where the "truest essence of men remains hidden," according to production notes. The Testosterone Testimonials, or T3. , invites them to take a public stand for the safety and health of men, women, children, and their community. Rather than focusing on those men who are violent and dangerous, it seeks to engage the majority of men "in providing models of positive behavior traits and deeper understandings of the richness of their gender."

The center is hoping T3 will expand the conversation about men in society, encourage them to volunteer for center programs and encourage other communities to present their own Testosterone Testimonials.

Contact Anne Constable at 986-3022 or aconstable@sfnewmexican.com.

IF YOU GO

What: The Testosterone Testimonials

When: 7:30-9:30 p.m. Saturday

Where: James A. Little Theater, 1060 Cerrillos Road

Who: Santa Fe Rape Crisis and Trauma Treatment Center

Cost: $50 (women who brings three paying men with her admitted free)

Post Performance: Celebration at Vanessie of Santa Fe restaurant, 434 W. San Francisco St., $150 (includes performance)